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年末盤點
我覺得今年應該是我心靈最堅強的一年+寫作戰鬥力超強的一年XDD
昨天中午被那個AU弄得無法睡下午兩小時寫出來
然後回家花三小時翻譯成英文
翻完再想他喵的我為什麼要把我該寫正文的時間 還有該睡覺的時間無意義的花掉又幹譙自己兩小時(炸)
昨晚徹底因為身體不舒服沒睡好(三點四點五點都醒來好幾次)
然後我現在在上班
偉哉維他命B群(咦
跟小夥伴抱怨完我得了翻譯強迫行為之後好像好一點了
我在緣木求魚啊
我明明知道那些人都非我族類 我幹嘛繼續敲
我解釋說這種行為就像是認為買了很貴的鋼筆自己的字就會變漂亮了一樣的幻覺 XD
事實上不會 所以還好我買過最貴的鋼筆也只有88元
下放跟小夥伴的原文
sometimes I don't know why I worked that hard.
maybe it's a kind of illusion
like if I buy an expensive fountain pen, my handwriting would miraculously be beautiful
I didn't sleep well again last night so I think I'm grumpier then usual (?)
I should stop my compulsive translating behavior first XD
Maybe when Gladio Week is over I could finally persuade myself that it's useless XD
Now we are still in the midst of Festival atmosphere so the illusion still holds.
kind of like an experiment.
Since I can't find anybody to read my Mandarin fic, can I try with translated ones?
But then again, I still can't figure out what I want (it's been bothering me for months)
I know that numbers don't matter.
I know that fans in English circles are very different from Mandarin or Japanese circles (I realized this 10 years ago when I was in NY and could not make any friends even if I attend lots of events and panels)
I tell myself everyday that it's useless please stop.
I joined this fandom only half a year, and maybe my ideas were used by others long time ago.
So why am I still doing the translation?
I don't know.
Maybe under the name of practicing English.
False hope I guess.
sorry I'm rambling
I should get back to the fic I've been working on.
maybe writing that one would make me feel better.
心靈堅強my ass
FFXV (5)