NightTide

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年末盤點
我覺得今年應該是我心靈最堅強的一年+寫作戰鬥力超強的一年XDD

昨天中午被那個AU弄得無法睡下午兩小時寫出來
然後回家花三小時翻譯成英文
翻完再想他喵的我為什麼要把我該寫正文的時間 還有該睡覺的時間無意義的花掉又幹譙自己兩小時(炸)
昨晚徹底因為身體不舒服沒睡好(三點四點五點都醒來好幾次)
然後我現在在上班


偉哉維他命B群(咦

跟小夥伴抱怨完我得了翻譯強迫行為之後好像好一點了
我在緣木求魚啊
我明明知道那些人都非我族類 我幹嘛繼續敲
我解釋說這種行為就像是認為買了很貴的鋼筆自己的字就會變漂亮了一樣的幻覺 XD
事實上不會 所以還好我買過最貴的鋼筆也只有88元

下放跟小夥伴的原文

sometimes I don't know why I worked that hard.
maybe it's a kind of illusion
like if I buy an expensive fountain pen, my handwriting would miraculously be beautiful
I didn't sleep well again last night so I think I'm grumpier then usual (?)

I should stop my compulsive translating behavior first XD
Maybe when Gladio Week is over I could finally persuade myself that it's useless XD
Now we are still in the midst of Festival atmosphere so the illusion still holds.

kind of like an experiment.
Since I can't find anybody to read my Mandarin fic, can I try with translated ones?
But then again, I still can't figure out what I want (it's been bothering me for months)

I know that numbers don't matter.
I know that fans in English circles are very different from Mandarin or Japanese circles (I realized this 10 years ago when I was in NY and could not make any friends even if I attend lots of events and panels)

I tell myself everyday that it's useless please stop.
I joined this fandom only half a year, and maybe my ideas were used by others long time ago.

So why am I still doing the translation?
I don't know.
Maybe under the name of practicing English.
False hope I guess.

sorry I'm rambling
I should get back to the fic I've been working on.
maybe writing that one would make me feel better.

心靈堅強my ass

喵的又不小心被推特上的拆逆訊息們逼得數次開關推特現在無處可去

仔細想想我今年是不是真的沒有進電影院看電影？
哇！原來我可以這樣過活喔（ 啥鬼）

我覺得有點面臨暴走，得在離開馬桶之前找到心靈平靜的方式（

太餓了手又抖了趕快吃完睡下吧十分鐘也好

結果我昏迷了25分鐘 真的很累

然後明天題目是刀哈哈哈哈哈
不寫刀的我被逼著寫了刀，雖然也好合理、也終於處理了原作原本就是刀的部分但還是......這組難道我甜不起來只能走AU嗎？！不啊腦子你告訴我那個NO.2的FFXV x 底特律戀人 x INCEPTION 的安卓x老派警探是哪裡能甜？！
我要一條狗，一條薩摩耶！！！然後伊格尼斯安卓可以吐嘈（X）他們兩個笑起來的時候一樣無法判定（不對啊這樣要吐嘈的是格拉迪歐XDDD

開始熱切的期盼祭典結束了，認真覺得這一個月有一點太過頭了。
是那種想要從窗子跳出去的感覺。
我還是先開個鬼束的cage或infection來唱唱好了我覺得不妙，因為再黑下去就是DOD和DOD3的等級了

鬼束ちひろ 紅白 人気曲 JPOP BEST ヒットメドレー 邦楽 最高の曲のリスト

30秒內就開始流淚了

This Silence is Mine／鬼束千尋(CC中文字幕)

照我現在這種反應，當年我也應該差不多是這種反應
我是不是從來沒有好好的、正常的、不哭著唱完他的第一張專輯啊XDD

然後我儘管覺得好像15年沒聽他的歌還是熟到可以直接唱啊
我可沒有練過他的歌所以說當年我到底LOOP了他的專輯多少次...

大概搞懂我SAN值現在很低任何東西都會變成刺激我該要自主離開SNS
有沒有增加SAN值的東西啊...(登入SNS